#YouAreEnough30 Blog Challenge: Day 9
Day 9: In Chapter Six, I talk about the end of a relationship that sent me spiraling into a dark place. Talk about a heartbreak of your own that you experienced, and what it taught you, about yourself and about life.
November 9, 2018: Though I never dated this guy and we were no more than acquaintances, I had a crush on him. I won’t get into much detail here because this would be a spoiler alert from my third book which is in the making.
Here’s what this heartbreak taught me: He was not the last single, age-appropriate Christian in my physical realm. We never had a relationship, so I did not know his character defects, except for the ones several people told me about. I realized that I wanted mutual interest and attraction in a relationship, not a one-sided fantasy.
When he started seeing someone and eventually marrying her, I had to end this crush. Besides at the age of 33, I was much too old for crushes, unless they were Hollywood celebrities. I wanted a real relationship, but I was super-picky and no one of my interest lived nearby. I realized that God is more concerned about my character than my circumstances. Even though I had been a practicing Christian for a number of years and believed I did all the right Christian things, God still had more chiseling to do on me and in me. God is not on a time table and neither should I be.
Years later, I saw this man from a distance at the grocery store. He was in his mid to late 30’s and wore skinny jeans (at least it wasn't as bad as other men in skinny jeans)! He had a stocky build and those jeans did not flatter him. I had a “What was I thinking?” moment. I could not believe I once wallowed in self-pity over a guy who now wore skinny jeans. God knew exactly what He was doing by not having this guy show interest in me and I thanked Him for it.
Here’s a funny blog I found: 8 Reasons Why Men Should Stop Wearing Skinny Jeans
