20 Years Later: Part 3

Reasons I would like to go: 1. Just to say that I went to a class reunion 2. I no longer care that I probably do not fit the typical blueprint of where I should probably be in my life. 3. I live in this town and it's not like I have to travel or find a hotel. 4. I am curious to see what my classmates are up to even though I see the majority of them on facebook. 5. Since I missed out on prom and graduation (both my choices), I want to revisit an old chapter in my life and make peace with it. 6. I am in much better shape than I was ten years earlier and feel more confident about my appearance. Reasons to forget about going: 1. I do not drink and am uncomfortable around drinking (which is the norm at most class reunions). 2. I will probably be dateless among many who aren't. 3. In spite of what I said about the #2 reason I would like to go, I feel a bit insecure that I am probably one of the few classmates who is still childless and I am not going to consider my dog as my child.

Forget about the reasons I do not want to go and just go for crying out loud!

Why should I care that I may not be exactly where I had hoped to be in life? Around the time of my 10-year reunion, I had hoped that by my 20-year reunion I would be married and maybe have at least one child. Instead, I am still single, live with my widowed mother and my dog. I have a part-time job that I really, really love and am attending college. Despite how I thought I would always be a hairdresser twenty years ago, I decided to take a different career path in my early 30s and do not regret that at all. I must also realize that the insecurities I sometimes struggle with are only in my head and others also struggle with insecurities that may be similar to mine or are entirely different. In the meantime, I will work hard to maintain my slimmer shape. Maybe even try to slim down a bit more. As for trying to find a date, I am not going to force the issue. It's possible that I could find my date at the reunion.