20 Years Later: Part 2

In 2005, I was now living a few hours from my hometown and probably would not make the reunion. I had considered going but I chickened out for petty reasons. I was still not slim enough, therefore I felt ugly and more unattractive than I did back in high school (In those days, I was by no means considered a hot chick) and I was divorced. Still had not found anyone else after being divorced for nearly three years. Nah, I decided not to go. I just let my friend tell me everything about our 10 year reunion. According to my friend, a good number (probably over 100) of our classmates showed up to the reunion. On the first night, everyone seemed chummy and excited to catch up with one another. Then by the end of the second (and last) evening, many people were back in their old cliques again. So, I don't feel as though I missed out. I just did not want my old insecurities from high school to resurface. I just did not think that ten years later I would still have low self-esteem issues even though I was now a rededicated, born-again Christian. I was also living on my own and supporting myself financially so that was something to show for. Two years after the 10 year reunion, I moved back to my hometown so I could be with my parents. When I encountered former classmates who still lived in the area, I was surprised that the majority of them did not attend the reunion. Some responses I heard: "I did not want to be around a bunch of stuck-up rich people who still thought they were better than everyone else." "I see the people that I want to see so I don't need to go to a ten-year reunion." My friend had informed me that she would not be going to our 20 year reunion. As for me, I'm still debating.